Patience- Wednesday 17th July 2024

Published on 19 July 2024 at 19:38

I miss her. 

 

But nothing can be done. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It's just been a rough week. 

 

My younger sibling had chest pains, so we took him to the GP, doctor, and he was then admitted to the hospital. We spent 7 hours outside, dealing with him. 

He suddenly fell ill, with a high fever, random vomiting and chest pains. 

 

He was being observed for 4 hours straight. 

 

I couldn't be on my phone (no WIFI). Just finished my book. 

 

I couldn't message her and tell her about the situation. I couldn't tell her my exhilaration about the book I was reading, though she wouldn't get the story, she still listened anyways. 

 

No contact... 

 

A part of me wonders how she is doing. Better than me? Worse than me?

 

I will never know. 

 

But yeah, my brother's illness, my own problem and the eviction notice. 

 

I'm stressing about how we are supposed to pack up the house before the 24th, or before the bailiffs- the people that attempt to remove you from the property. Don't even know if I spelt it right. 

 

 

Then, after 7 hours straight to attending to my brother's illness, we went to my Grandma's because we were welcoming back my cousins who had been travelling. 

 

They were back safely, thank God. 

Hours of chatters, and eating. 

 

I just don't think I have patience, since I'm just irked by the fact that there is no space in the living room at my Grandma's, due to her inhabiting the living room since her inability to walk, and to my Grandpa who constantly sits at the giant chair near the TV. 

We hardly had space to sit on the floor, especially for a big family as us. 

 

And, I'm struggling to be patient. I have to find a way to be patient, because I, myself, am deaf.

And I feel like the worst person in the world to be feeling irked and lacking patience, since I know that I need people to be patient with me. 

 

So, I should and need to be patient with my grandparents too. 

 

After all, I know how it feels to be treated as a burden and when somebody loses their patience with us.... 

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