The First Day of Separation- Away From Home

Monday 4th September 2023

They were my strength. 

There I sat, in my medium-sized bedroom, which is accompanied by Isolation and Silence. The eerie silence sat in the corner, lurking with its beady red eyes that stood out from its dark demeanor and appearance. 

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They were my strength.

And there I sit, in the eerie silence, which I am often acquainted with. 

But this time is different. 

it is sinister in this hot room as if someone is lurking in the shadows. 

Maybe there is someone in the shadows, ready to grab me and drown me in a black hole.

But am I not already in the inky pool? Perchance, I never noticed until my strength is robbed from me unexpectedly. 

Loneliness strikes me vigorously. 

I thought you are my friend?

We have been together for six years, yet, you strike me so harshly and so coldly. 

I stood by you, and You I.

I was your best friend, you made me immune to loneliness. 

Now you give me the cold shoulder?

Doesn't matter, you probably deceived me too, fallen in line with your victims. 

Get out of my sight!

No.... you'll never rid of me..... it whispered. 

Fine. 

I pulled out my phone, and sent a message to my only best friend. 

Then, I wait. 

I stare at the white, impassive walls, who has seen victims like me fall a thousand times. 

No. I will not.....

My throat tightened around a hard rock in my throat. I swallowed briskly and thickly. 

Ya Rabb (O Lord)

The tears blurred my sight. 

Please... guide me... don't let me astray....

The loneliness sinks deeper into my heart as I choked out a sob. 

Burying my face in my hand, I screamed silently, crying into my hands. 

I rush to the direction of prayer, and sunk my face into the ground. 

Ya Rabb (O Lord)

Please protect me. Guide me.